Narcissism/Insecurity

Also filed under 'things I wish they had told me.'
I started with the Cadet program at Jet City a little over a year ago, so I've been having lots of flash backs lately about how I was feeling back then.  I remember being nervous, insecure and totally self-obsessed and assumed that many of these feelings would subside once I made a team.  I was wrong.  Last year it was about making the team.  This year it's about making the roster - and making a difference on the track.  Of course, insecurity is its own brand of narcissism and dwelling in it for too long would make anyone an annoying companion.  For that reason I try to keep it mostly to myself, but the thing been rearing its ugly head again lately and I think I know why.  The regular season is near at hand and I feel that I've made significant improvements in the past couple of months.  The question now is whether that's enough and the answer isn't mine to give.
<posted on 12.18.12>